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Ten November Notions

A few months ago, I posted an entry mentioning a 2018 book I often refer to: Hans Rosling and family’s study of global conditions Factfulness (https://jinnyoccasionalpoems.com/2025/03/15/newsworthy/). 

We’re in the early days of “National Novel Writing November.” While any novel I may have inside me has yet to agitate for birth, I would like to make the effort to write somewhat more frequently during this month when writers of all genres are encouraged to put pen to paper (or hands to keyboards). 

The Roslings published their book, subtitled “Ten Reasons We’re Wrong About the World—and Why Things Are Better Than You Think,” before the Covid-19 pandemic and before some of our current political dysfunction in the U.S. and elsewhere. I believe that their “ten reasons,” also called “instincts,” are still relevant, perhaps even more so now than when they wrote. I plan to explore each one of the ten, not necessarily in order, every few days between now and the end of November. (Their non-profit information foundation, Sweden-based gapminder.org, subtitled “important stuff most people get wrong,” makes frequent updates to the information they study.)  

As an introduction, I’ve photocopied the page near the end of their book that lists their ten reasons, providing a catchy graphic for each one. In the text of the book, the Roslings mesh statistics with personal stories from Hans’ life. One early experience, his near-death from drowning as a 4-year-old, helped form Hans’ world view, as did successive brushes with mortality as he pursued a career as a global health researcher with a concentration on sub-Saharan Africa. 

My interpretations of the ten reasons are somewhat different from Hans’, based on my own life experiences and opinions. Your interpretations will likely be different from mine. Still, I hope that by focussing on each “instinct” in turn, we may all wind up with slightly different perspectives on the opportunities of the present moment, as well as its dangers. 

Next up, the “urgency” instinct.  

April Foolishness

April, thank heavens, is nearly over. It’s been a real seesaw ride, with on-again/off-again tariffs, roll backs of environmental safeguards, and wild gyrations in the U.S. and other global stock markets. Civil rights are under attack, amid detentions and deportations of highly questionable legality. Along with all this have come near constant doses of hyperbole, vitriol, and vacuousness from various U.S. national officials. Whoa!  

Outside the U.S., wars in Gaza and Ukraine grind on, causing ever-deepening destruction and human misery. Despite our current President’s boast of ending the Ukrainian conflict even before his inauguration, what talks are occurring seem far from establishing even a temporary cease fire, let alone a resolution of the status of disputed territory plus security guarantees to prevent a recurrence. In Gaza, regardless of Israeli Defense Force claims to be hunting just Hamas terrorists, the density of the Gazan population means that more and more civilians are being killed, maimed, or starved to death. Globally, various other armed conflicts simmer or worsen, less noticed in America-based publicity. 

To adjust my perspective a bit, I went back to an artistic work from the previous time the world seemed on the brink of falling apart, in the early 1940’s. I watched the classic Charlie Chaplin movie, “The Great Dictator,” originally released in October, 1940. At that time, the U.S. had not yet entered the rapidly spreading conflict we now know as World War II. However, German military forces had occupied Belgium, the Netherlands, Luxembourg, and much of France. Germany’s then-ally, the Soviet Union, had annexed the Baltic states of Latvia, Lithuania, and Estonia, while German ally Italy had invaded Greece. The German air force was conducting frequent bombing raids over Great Britain. Jews in Warsaw, Poland were being herded into an increasingly crowded and restrictive ghetto.

In the movie, Chaplin plays both anti-semitic dictator Adenoid Hynkel, ruler of the mythical country of Tomainia, and his look-alike, an anonymous Jewish barber who’d previously fought for Tomainia during the first World War and had suffered twenty years of amnesia stemming from his injuries. The barber, after returning to his former shop, regaining his memory, and being caught up in anti-semitic raids, flees with his former commander, both of them dressed in military uniforms. The barber is mistakenly presumed to be Hynkel and is pressured into giving a speech to the citizens of the neighboring country of Osterlich, recently invaded by Hynkel’s troops. Impersonating Hynkel, the barber, instead of more bombast, gives an impassioned speech about the need for peace and justice: 

“I’m sorry, but I don’t want to be an emperor. That’s not my business. I don’t want to rule or conquer anyone. I should like to help everyone – if possible – Jew, Gentile – black man – white. We all want to help one another. Human beings are like that. We want to live by each other’s happiness – not by each other’s misery. … To those who can hear me, I say – do not despair. The misery that is now upon us is but the passing of greed – the bitterness of men who fear the way of human progress. The hate of men will pass, and dictators die, and the power they took from the people will return to the people. And so long as men die, liberty will never perish.”

Though release of “The Great Dictator” was initially limited in some U.S. cities with substantial German-American populations, over time it became Chaplin’s most successful film commercially. The film has also won critical acclaim as one of the greatest comedies ever produced. In 1997, it was selected by the Library of Congress for inclusion in the National Film Registry.

As we approach the final day of this tumultuous month, it may be just coincidence that April 30 marks a couple of other transitions in recent history: On April 30, 1945, Adolf Hitler committed suicide in his Berlin bunker, as opposing troops closed in from both west and east; on April 30, 1975, the final Americans left South Vietnam after a generation of American involvement, as troops from the north shelled the presidential palace in Saigon.

This April, we’re also marking a transition of leadership in one of the world’s major faiths. We’re partway through a nine day period of mourning for Pope Francis, who died earlier in April. For over a dozen years, Francis used his papacy to speak up for the world’s underserved—our natural environment, and those of our human citizens who have least benefited from the global economy.  

While watching one bombastic leader hold forth in an Oval Office centered on a toy airplane, we can remember that his style is not the only possible option. Both Chaplin’s barber and the former leader whose simple casket was recently laid to rest provide viable counterexamples.

Five Finger Exercise

A few weeks before the 2024 U.S. election, I attended a local workshop about healing, mostly self healing. I hoped to learn some new skills, brush up on some older ones, to hone practices for remaining calmer and more focussed, as this national political campaign neared its quadrennial conclusion. 

I was reminded to practice paying attention to my breath—afterward I resumed early morning sessions of “yoga breathing” several days each week. The workshop provided refreshers about reframing difficult situations to try to understand and respect opposing viewpoints while not abandoning one’s own. I practiced mirroring what I thought I’d heard, pausing before giving my perspective, then keeping my voice even and speaking slowly. 

One practice that was new to me was a body-based sequence which I’ve attempted to adapt as a just-before-sleep ritual when a day has been especially stressful. It involves using the fingers of both hands to clasp successively, then release, five troubling emotional states: loss, fear, anger, worry, and self-doubt

To practice this five finger exercise, I begin by grasping the thumb of my left hand with all the fingers of my right hand, bringing to mind personal losses, either recent or still raw: death or illness of a family member or close friend, end of a cherished relationship, a natural disaster, violence that has diminished me directly or indirectly. I keep holding onto my left thumb until the anguish of such losses subsides to a more manageable level.  

Then I use my right hand to encircle my left index finger. I review any times during the day just ending when I’ve felt fear. I reflect on how severe the threat was, and how I can develop more effective coping techniques if a similar situation comes up later. Once I’ve gleaned as much wisdom as I can, I move on to the middle finger.

It seems fitting that this is the “anger” finger. Mostly when I start working with this finger, I’m angry at someone—either a personal friend or relative who I believe has slighted me, or a public figure whose abrasiveness I find off-putting. Before I finish with the middle finger, it often occurs to me that it’s the behavior, rather than the person, that I’m most angry at. Forgiveness may or may not come later, but distinguishing a person from his/her bad behavior is a start. 

Dealing with my fourth finger rehashes the worries of the day. This finger reminds me to distinguish between fear and worry. For me, fear is about “big picture” threats like nuclear annihilation, another global pandemic, an asteroid collision, or about being physically assaulted. Worry is instead about niggling little aspects of daily life: Why did our indoor air purifier stop functioning correctly? Why aren’t the spring seeds I planted germinating better? Why has my toothpaste started tasting sour to me? It typically doesn’t take very long to realize the trivial nature of my worries. 

My pinkie is the finger of self-doubt. For me, it’s totally appropriate that this is the final finger of the exercise. No next finger to hurry on to. As much time as I need to regain perspective on my place in the larger scheme of things. It can take a while (I don’t attempt to measure the time) for it to dawn on me that much of my sense of inadequacy comes from the fallacy that, as one of our national politicians likes to put it, “I alone can solve it.” Except for small problems, this is patently untrue. No one, alone, can solve the complex problems our society grapples with, though each of us can play our part. 

After a bit, I do a rewind of my day’s activities. I give myself credit for small acts of kindness and empathy. Sometimes it’s just a smile to a stranger. Other times it’s a small act of service or consideration. If over the course of the day I’ve acted out of malice or spite, I chide myself gently, see if there’s a way I can make amends tomorrow, and then let the episode go. 

Finally, I release my pinkie finger and drift off to sleep. As a well-known Southern belle movie heroine had as her mantra, “Tomorrow is another day.”     

Trauma and Healing

Southern California at the start to 2025 has been the site of extensive trauma. Multiple wildfires are burning large areas around Los Angeles, abetted by fierce Santa Ana winds and a winter drought. Still not fully contained, the fires have killed dozens, forced mass evacuations, destroyed thousands of homes and businesses. 

People elsewhere haven’t been immune, either. Even if we’ve tried to shield ourselves from too much media exposure, we probably have heard about the New Year’s Day killing of New Orleans revelers by a disturbed military veteran who rammed his truck into a crowd. It’s hard to remain entirely oblivious to ongoing warfare and carnage in Ukraine, in Sudan, or in Gaza, where a limited ceasefire seems finally to be taking hold. 

As someone who came of age at the height of U.S. involvement in Vietnam in the late 1960’s, I’ve had long, indirect exposure to that war’s trauma. The Vietnam Veterans Memorial, dedicated in Washington, D.C. in 1982, is inscribed with the names of the over 58,000 American soldiers who lost their lives in that war. Estimates of the number of Vietnamese deaths in the period 1965-1975 range from about 750,000 to over 3 million, including both soldiers and civilians. Somewhere around a million Vietnamese survivors became “boat people,” making perilous sea journeys that eventually led many to settle in the U.S.  

The more people I get to know, the more history I learn, the more I become aware of traumas that have impacted millions of Americans. The past fifty years or so have uncovered more of the pain and dislocation of the chattel slavery practiced from about 1650 until the 1865 end of the American Civil War in the territory of the U.S. Even after the legal abolition of slavery, discriminatory practices and intimidation continued to severely circumscribe the lives of many former slaves. “Generational trauma” can persist, perpetuated by the lack of respect or opportunity accorded many African-Americans for centuries. 

Not all who are traumatized are black. More and more accounts are surfacing of gender-based violence, of violence in families, of mental illness or suicidal tendencies among those exposed to extended trauma. No amount of wealth, privilege, or fame seems sufficient to make one immune. 

Today we celebrate a holiday in honor of Martin Luther King, Jr., considered by many to be one of the most effective civil rights leaders during the 1950’s and 1960’s. King’s life began in racially segregated Atlanta, Georgia in January, 1929. Despite the constrictions of segregation, King excelled in his studies, attended Morehouse College, and later Boston University, where he completed his doctorate in 1955. Beginning in 1954, King also served as pastor of the Dexter Avenue Baptist Church in Montgomery, Alabama. In December, 1955, King was tapped to be the public face of the Montgomery Bus Boycott, started when Rosa Parks, a black woman, declined to give up her bus seat to a white passenger who boarded the bus at a later stop. King’s oratory and his negotiating skills were important in bringing the boycott to a successful conclusion after over a year.

King became known for his espousal of nonviolence, based partly on the practices of Indian independence pioneer Mahatma Gandhi. In some of his writings, King gave six principles of non-violence: 

1. Nonviolence is a way of life for courageous people.
2. Nonviolence seeks to win friendship and understanding.
3. Nonviolence seeks to defeat injustice, not people.
4. Nonviolence holds that suffering for a just cause can educate and transform.
5. Nonviolence chooses love instead of hate.
6. Nonviolence believes that the universe is on the side of justice.

King’s dedication to nonviolence was tested early during the bus boycott, when in January, 1956, his house was firebombed while he was away giving a speech at a nearby church. His wife and infant daughter were inside–fortunately they were not hurt. A mob of armed supporters later assembled bent on retribution, but King persuaded them to go home and lay down their weapons. Later, when on a book tour about the bus boycott in 1958, King was stabbed in the chest by a deranged woman. King was successfully operated on, recovered, and went on to lead further nonviolent protests. For years, he was hounded and wiretapped by J. Edgar Hoover’s FBI. He was jailed nearly thirty times, often on trumped up charges. If anyone should have become embittered or violent as a result of continued and multiple traumas, you’d think it might be MLK. 

Instead, as long as he was alive, he continued to work nonviolently for social change. He was not perfect, but his example of transcending trauma through the healing power of nonviolence is one we need to remember, especially now. 

Finite and Infinite Games

Nearly forty years ago, a small book called out to me from the shelf of our local public library: Finite and Infinite Games, by James P. Carse, then a professor of history and religious studies. As I read through it, I noticed that many of the book’s examples drew heavily from recent U.S. experiences in Vietnam. Some of Carse’s conclusions struck me as overly simplistic. Still, I liked his basic premise, summarized as: 

“ There are at least two kinds of games: finite and infinite. A finite game is played for the purpose of winning, an infinite game for the purpose of continuing the play. Finite games are those instrumental activities … in which the participants obey rules, recognize boundaries and announce winners and losers. The infinite game … includes any authentic interaction, from touching to culture, that changes rules, plays with boundaries and exists solely for the purpose of continuing the game.” 

A few years before I encountered the Carse book, I’d been involved in a set of human potential workshops. My recollections of that overall experience are somewhat hazy, but I distinctly remember one simulation involving finite and infinite game possibilities. Late into the evening of the next to the last day of our multi-day workshop, we participants were divided into two teams of about fifty people each. All of us were tired. Still, we all wanted to “win” by showcasing our full potential to our workshop leaders. Each team was then led into its own separate soundproof room, isolated from the other team. We were very limited in our inter-team communications—only short written messages could be exchanged by “runners” between the rooms. 

During successive rounds of the simulation, we could vote as a team either to cooperate with the other team, or to compete with it. Our leaders had deliberately kept vague any rules about how to decide our team’s vote, how to guess the other team’s strategy, how to know when the game would end, or even to know what the object of the game might be. Not until after the simulation ended were we asked to consider whether the aim of the game might have been to maximize our overall results by consistently cooperating. (Similar games have been used by game theorists to examine human behavior in a wide variety of circumstances. Some such simulations are labeled “the prisoners’ dilemma.”)  

Later, while our children were growing up, I became acquainted with one of the teachers in their school system’s enrichment programs. Though John Hunter didn’t directly interact with our children, some of his ideas percolated throughout the system. Near the end of his school teaching career, he became something of a celebrity by publishing a book about a term-long simulation he had engaged in with many successive classes of elementary school students. 

The book, World Peace and Other 4th Grade Achievements, has since spawned a TED talk, a film, and a non-profit, The World Peace Game Foundation (worldpeacegame.org). To “win” his world peace game, Hunter established that by the end of the multi-round simulation, the inhabitants of his four mythical countries must not be engaged in active conflict. Also, their collective total resources must be greater than when the game started. He didn’t try to prefigure the outcome of any of the simulations. He let the students work through their own process, being available only to answer process-related questions. Often, he was sure until the very last minute that he and his students would “lose” the game. He was/is sometimes amazed at the creativity and empathy of nine and ten year olds tasked with solving 50 interlocking and mutually reinforcing problems.  

By the time this blog entry is posted, we will be less than 60 days from the 2024 U.S. elections. If this election cycle is like most recent ones, inflammatory rhetoric among candidates and their partisans will be escalating. “Facts” will be cherry-picked, sometimes not facts at all. 

So I take heart from a sequel to Carse’s book that came out in 2019, Simon Sinek’s The Infinite Game. The author, a management consultant and bestselling author, begins with an acknowledgment of Carse’s precursor work. Sinek then expands on Carse’s premises with examples from his consulting practice. He also sets out five guidelines for playing an infinite game, regardless of the stances of the other players around you: 

—advance a just cause (not just increasing shareholder/stakeholder wealth)

—build trusting teams (partly by modeling empathy and inclusion, partly through coaching)  

—study your worthy rivals (they can help you improve)

—prepare for existential flexibility (sometimes you have to bet the ranch)

—demonstrate the courage to lead (don’t expect the process to be easy; do your best to stay both humble and connected) 

Whatever putative leaders we may choose during this election, afterwards we will each have the option to orient (and/or reorient) our life choices. We can tilt toward playing more finite or more infinite games. Maybe in the long run, whether we know it or not, we’re all playing an infinite game.    

Recentering

I have a somewhat strained relationship with mobile phone directions apps. On the one hand, they can be helpful in navigating in unfamiliar locations. On the other hand, they can be infuriatingly obtuse at honoring my preferences for places I mostly know how to get to (limited or no freeway use, as few left turns as possible, a generally direct route toward my destination). The most aggravating circumstances of all are when I lack just a little knowledge at either end of the trip. I’ll be in dense traffic in the right lane when the annoying app voice tells me “in 800 feet, turn left.”  Not going to happen. 

Sometimes I’m able to adjust quickly enough to resume following the app’s instructions. Say, for example, there’s an almost miraculous break in traffic. At other times,  there seems to be no way to adjust my driving to match the app.  So I tootle along semi-lost, somewhat relieved that I’ve allowed extra time to reach any  appointments with a set schedule. After a while, the app will display a message, “recentering,” then attempt to find me an alternate route to my destination based on where I currently am. 

Given the present political and media climates, both in the U.S. and globally, I need to practice “recentering” often in other aspects of my life. This can involve insulating myself temporarily from most external distractions of our too often noisy lives. It can be hard to get away from the noises of airplanes overhead, leaf blowers nearby, or a neighbor’s next home improvement project. (I need to remember to be grateful that the noises surrounding me are generally benign—not bombs, not bullets, not blaring sirens.)  It’s nearly always possible, though, with some effort, to find a time/place for quiet contemplation.

Both Christian and Buddhist faith traditions have evolved forms of centering. Christianity focuses on our communication with what we call God. Buddhism stresses non-attachment to external stimuli. I doubt that I’ll ever become totally adept at either practice.  Still, I’ve found that taking a breather (sometimes literally focusing on my breath) can help me be less overwhelmed by what’s going on around me. 

Perhaps the phone directions apps are onto something.  

A Gentle “Consurrection”

This January 6, I want to remember the date as my sister-in-law’s birthday, or maybe the Christian festival of Epiphany. I’ll do my best to tune out an overdose of analysis and commentary about U.S. events of January 6, 2021. 

This year’s January 6 falls on a Saturday, when many of us will be experiencing a weekend, free from most work obligations and ready for a change of pace. As an inveterate player with words, I want to propose a widening “consurrection.” Taking the prefix “con,” typically meaning “with,” to replace the “in” of “insurrection,” we can create a “rising up with,” rather than the “rising up against” that occurred a few years ago. Just as “conspiring” at its root represents “breathing together,” so might “consurrecting” come to mean something like “working together to create a more humane, welcoming society.” 

I would like more and more of us to spend part of January 6 each year in the sort of voluntary public service that’s become more closely associated with the MLK holiday later in January—let this Saturday be the start. Thanks to a faith community teamed with a local non-profit, I’ll have a chance on Saturday to sort produce for an area food bank’s weekly distribution, “consurrecting” on January 6 with an eclectic range of folks who work to reduce food insecurity in San Diego County. 

May you find a worthwhile and fulfilling path toward “consurrection” as well.

Friendly Beasts

The local church whose “back lot” has for over a decade served as a community garden also engages with the wider community in other ways. Recently, on a trip to tend my garden plot, I saw posters for a “live Nativity.” I’d not yet seen one, supposedly initiated by Saint Francis in central Italy during the 12th century as a way of teaching about Christ’s birth. The poster for the local event prominently featured a camel. 

“Where would anybody find a camel around here?” I wondered. “At the zoo?”  Intrigued, I showed up at the church’s front lawn just before sunset on a balmy Saturday evening to see for myself. Sure enough, there was a regal-looking camel, festooned with a decorated blanket and tassels and bells. Standing beside the camel, holding its halter, was a swarthy bearded man in a long embroidered robe. He represented one of the three kings bringing gifts for the baby Jesus. The nativity also included a couple of sheep, some goats, and a donkey, in addition to the three humans representing the Holy Family. 

It was a supremely kid-friendly event. Lots of families with children were taking part—looking at the animals, petting the goats, decorating Christmas cookies, sipping cider or cocoa. I stayed long enough to chat briefly with some of the animal handlers. Turns out, the camel was from the “Oasis Camel Dairy” in a nearby farming area. She’d been rented out for the occasion. 

In most years, the town of Bethlehem in Palestine, site of the original Nativity, sees a huge influx of religiously oriented tourists around Christmas. Pilgrims come from all over the world to see the Basilica of the Nativity and to visit its grotto, the oldest continuously used site of Christian worship. Many suppose it to be the place of Jesus’ birth. This year, though, according to a recent article in the Jerusalem Post, nearly all tourists have canceled, further depressing the local economy. The locality’s struggles to support itself are also complicated by a full-scale war being waged in nearby Gaza.

Even amid sadness and outrage at the ongoing carnage in the Mideast, I’m reminded by the live nativity here of one of my favorite Christmas songs, variously titled “The Gifts They Gave,” or “The Friendly Beasts.” Sung by many different soloists, one of the most popular versions is by Harry Belafonte. Listening to his mellow rendition helps calm and inspire me. In the song, a donkey, a sheep, and a dove in turn explain the gifts they brought for the Christ child: the donkey, transport for Jesus’ mother Mary to Bethlehem; the sheep, a warm blanket for the new baby; the dove, a lullaby. In current news, if we see donkeys at all, they are likely pulling carts of Palestinians fleeing in search of some area of safety. 

At this holy season, may we remember the Christmas song’s friendly beasts and their simple gifts. May we imitate such wise animals more often. 

Gratitude over Resentment

Most days, I remember at some point to be grateful: 
—for life 
—for breathable air, for water that’s safe to drink 
—for access to food, clothing, and shelter 
—for health 
—for family and friends both near and far 
—for sunrises and sunsets, for clear days and for rainy ones.  

It seems totally appropriate to me that we celebrate an autumn holiday in honor of gratitude, “Thanksgiving.” 

Depending on what traditions we’ve been exposed to, we may think that the Thanksgiving holiday in the current territory of the U.S. originated in 1541 in Texas with Spanish explorer Coronado and the Teya Indians. We might suppose that Thanksgiving started in 1619 in eastern Virginia when some British colonists gave thanks for their safe arrival on American shores. Lots of us were taught as primary school students about the 1621 Massachusetts feast when Pilgrims and Wampanoag Indians celebrated together after the immigrants’ first successful harvest. In multiple places in the colonies and then in the U. S., Thanksgiving was celebrated locally or intermittently for a long time, but it only became fixed as a national holiday in 1863. That year, then-President Abraham Lincoln issued a proclamation making the last Thursday of November (later tweaked by Congress to the 4th Thursday) a national celebration of Thanksgiving.

November 2023 has so far often lacked for gratitude—wars and conflicts dominate our headlines; fiscal and military brinksmanship abounds; in many places there’s a general feeling of malaise and discouragement. Resentment often fills our airwaves and screens. It’s so pervasive that it can seem to poison the very air. Few of us will ever let go of our resentments entirely, be they of long-ago childhood slights or traumas, of former lovers who jilted us, or of perceived business or professional snubs. The rich and powerful are not immune, either. Some can seem resentful that they’ve not obtained even more wealth and/or power. So, especially in this fraught season, it’s important to make time for gratitude. 

Fortunately, it’s nearly impossible to be resentful and grateful at exactly the same time. Thanksgiving reminds us to rearrange our lives to expand our proportion of gratitude and to diminish our corresponding “resentment quotient.”  We need Thanksgivings, more than we usually admit.  

Coronado’s party and the long-ago Virginians and Pilgrims had lives filled with deprivation and danger. Back then, there might have seemed little reason to be grateful. At the first national November Thanksgiving in 1863, the American Civil War raged. Though the tide of battle seemed to have turned in favor of preserving the Union, the outcome was far from sure. Deaths and injuries had touched many families both North and South. In many places, basic goods were either in short supply or totally unavailable. The ill will and resentment that had helped spark the war lingered. Even now, it sometimes darkens our politics. 

Happily, for most of us in the U.S. in 2023, Thanksgiving does not equate with privation. It’s sobering, though, that over a tenth of our population fell below the official poverty line in calendar 2022. Moreover, during the period 2020-2022, there were about a million and a half excess deaths, either directly from the covid pandemic, or from other health complications. Many Thanksgiving tables this year are missing one or more previous guests.  

Still, it’s my hope that this Thanksgiving many of us will have things to be grateful for. I hope that most of us will resist temptations either to settle old scores or to prefigure the next election cycle. May we, for at least the better part of a day, let gratitude overtake any resentments.  

A previous Thanksgiving feast

While Waiting for the Fever to Break

(October 24 is celebrated as “United Nations Day,” 
commemorating the entry into force in 1945 of the U.N. Charter, whose text can be
referenced at https://www.un.org/en/about-us/un-charter/full-text)

While waiting for the fever to break,
I apply cold compresses and administer aspirin,
trying to remember not to exceed the recommended dose.
I pray, and pray, and pray some more.
I tell others and myself “I love you,” over and over, fervently.
I hum lullabies and songs of peace.
I crave quiet. I shy away from news and opinion.

While waiting for the fever to break,
I try to damp down feverish attempts to “make the world safe,”
be they my own or others’.
I search to find and support more measured changes toward
whatever the world wants to become.
I meander around the nearby detritus of prior conflicts, wondering at the
residual scars.
I gravitate toward the small patch of cleared ground where a group of us is
learning organic gardening.
Well before dawn, jarred awake by a buzzing phone, I ask the still-dark sky for wisdom.
The stars shine an answer, one I’ve too often forgotten:
“No one is an absolute owner; we are all, rather, temporary stewards.”